One of the implied requirements to being a part of the Elijah company, is an utter end to the self absorption. It's quite literally consumed most of my life “to be all you can be” and this is something that only Jesus can change. I encourage you to prayerfully listen and allow the Holy Spirit to quicken the message to your heart. It's time to grow up in Jesus and allow God to begin to mold the Elijah company.
I pray that if your heart has been convicted that your pray this prayer in Mark 11:23 “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.” Trust Jesus to cast this great mountain of self-absorption into the sea and He will do it!